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27 August, 2014

Clover answers your questions on relationships, careers, and more!

I pride myself on my advice-giving skills; it's one thing I've always been able to do.

Maybe I should have been a psychologist, who knows.

I've also been lucky (??) to have had a TON of experiences (the best and the fucking worst), and have been given many opportunities in my professional and personal life. I'm very fortunate to be where I am and I've happy that I've had the mindset I do to have allowed me to get here (thanks mom!).

In saying that, I'd love to answer your questions. Could be anything from relationships and personal issues and thoughts, to professional career advice, and everything in-between. 

I'm not claiming to be an expert, but I would love to offer my POV on things you may be mulling over or not sure how to approach.

If you want to email me (anonymous) you can do so through my contact form or leave a comment below, or reach out to me through my FB page or my Twitter.

I will post all questions and answers when I respond, leaving out all names.

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Having someone to talk to is always important, no matter what mindset you are in. I encourage you, if you feel like you have nobody else to turn to, I would be DELIGHTED to get in touch with you to talk. 

A list of help lines are available here, globally.

18 August, 2014

List of plot descriptions for my short stories

OK. So. Created a handy-dandy excel spreadsheet which has every top short story I've written in the past few years.

If you are interested in reading anything I've written (you can always visit CloverQuips.com) you can check out this chart which has:

1) Name and link of each story
2) Brief plot outline / synopsis
3) Length of story (small, medium, long)
4) Wordcount of each story (in case your definition of 'short' differs from mine)
5) Genre (Includes: Horror, Thriller, Supernatural, Romance, Sentimental, and Real Life)

Let me know any feedback or thoughts, looking forward to sharing everything with you guys!

Chart can be found here.

Any questions? Let me know. You can reach me through twitter @Amanda_Lei





16 July, 2014

Candid Break-up Advice: How to Feel Better, Get Over It, and Move On


Normally I don't do this but a friend just recently broke up with her boyfriend and she's having a pretty tough go of it.



Here is an excerpt of the advice I gave her that worked for me:




    • Amanda Éire Murphy
      Amanda 


      change is hard, and you want to set things right that have been uprooted - that's normal but you need to realize that's why you're upset, not because of him but because your routines are different and you miss the security of being with someone else
    • Amanda Éire Murphy
      Amanda


      this is your life, this sucks for you, you feel hurt and alone and like you will never be able to love anyone again, and that nobody will ever love you the same or as much but that is just utter crap. your heart is a mother fucker and hearts everywhere dick us around - they make us feel like utter shit and crap and want us to feel depressed and alone and sad but they do this to EVERYONE. you are feeling a feeling literally everyone in the world has felt, because hearts are dicks and they play everyone.
    • Amanda Éire Murphy
      Amanda


      so this feeling will not last, because once your brain figures out what's going on you will be like ''i know why i feel sad and it wont last.'
    • Amanda Éire Murphy
      Amanda 


      one day, I'm not saying its today or next week, but one day you will wake up and you will say 'I don't feel as fucking awful today as i did yesterday.' then maybe one day after that you will wake up and think 'today I don't feel that bad' and then eventually you will wake up one day and think 'I am actually happy today'
    • Amanda Éire Murphy
      Amanda 


      and that time will come, trust me on my life it's going to come.

      so choke back this feeling as best you can and move through your life every day as best you can and realize he was not the person you're supposed to be with and you know this, or it would have worked out. it hurts things changed but let him live his own life. What he does now is none of your business.


Note: 

This is where I will follow up with some words of wisdom about break ups.


Breakups are fucking shit. Do you know what 'Graduation Goggles' are? It's where something you were a part of for a long time ends, and you suddenly look back on the time with heartfelt regret, maybe nostalgia, maybe you think you're making the wrong choice because things are changing, etc.

You can apply the Graduation Googles to literally any situation. This just happened to me when I left my last job. I was so upset, I thought I made the wrong choice, everyone was so supportive of me, I thought “how could I leave, I love everyone, I love my job, I can deal with all the less-good stuff I was just being dramatic. Why did I want to leave!?” and then a week after I start my new job I hear about some fuckin bull that went down and I’m like “oh right. That’s why.” And it’s like I tried to trick myself.

And this happens for relationships as well. Once you get back together or hear something or something happens and you think “oh shit that’s why we aren't dating.” And then it comes to you. Like a half ton of bricks to the temple swinging from the place called “I told you so”.

This feeling is like fucking Houdini doing some bullshit magic on your heart. It's not real, it feels real and it looks real but it. is. not. real. You're leaving the end of a situation and you are tricked into looking back on all the good times and not the bad, our brains literally make us want to forget the crap. So that's why once you break up with someone chances are a lot of other people will end up getting back together, because they think they made a mistake and they miss the other person. Which 99% of the time you are being trolled like you would not believe.

My ex of almost 4 years and I broke up at least 3-4 big times, each time I cried and thought I we made a mistake. Each time I thought “I can deal with this crappy stuff, things will get better” (at one point his mom actually called me ‘tenacious’ when I told her the last time we got back together). And then you hold on and you maybe move out together, change houses, adopt a dog, or get married or god forbid have a child because you think the change in the dynamic will revert you guys back to how you were. 99% of the time this makes things worse, and you realize “I can’t change this person, why did I even try, now I own a [object/living thing] and I feel trapped and like I can’t escape my life now.”

That last example was pretty dramatic but you can take from it what you will.

During breakups everyone feels like their whole fucking life has been ripped away from them. They no longer feel whole, they feel like a piece of their soul is gone and in the worst-case scenario, like they will never be loved or feel happy again. The thought of that person making someone else happy literally rips your heart out and crushes it, and you can’t breathe. You feel like you’re drowning or choking or both, you can’t take in oxygen and the crushing weight of sadness and devastation feels like it is just coated on you like a second skin you can’t take off.

Lucky for you this is not a new feeling. You may think “Amanda you asshole, this is different. What I feel is 500x more than anyone else will ever feel. You could not possibly know the pain I am in.”

Surprise, jerk, this is a universally-accepted state called ‘Post-Break-Up’ and happens to everyone. Event angsty 15 year olds have gone through this. Grown-ass adults have literally ended their lives because of it. It’s terrible, and it’s sad but it’s not forever. And it will get better and you just need to know that.

So my advice to you, dear reader, is know that when you break up with someone it’s for a reason. Whether you ended it, it was mutual (when does that ever even happen), or it was not by choice, the relationship wasn’t going to work. Your life terminated it like an unhealthy part of your body and you just need to know that if it was the person you were supposed to be with then you would still be together. And that’s just how it is. It’s a shitty factoid but a true one, “but maybe I can change them/their mind”, no you cannot.

You can never change anyone else. And if anyone ever changes for you it’s because they wanted to. But if they didn’t want to and begrudgingly do so, it won’t last. It’s like bubble-gum in a crack of the Hover. Eventually that gum will get tired of trying to fit into a mold you’ve crammed them into and will pop out. This is inevitable – this is life. And let me just tell you, if you have to ask someone to change their life/personality for you (and that person doesn’t recognize it’s an issue and fix it on their own) then you’re probably going to have a bad time in the future. Not the greatest cue to have.


But don’t give up. It looks bad now and you may feel terrible, but let me tell you, love is one of the most beautiful and pure things in the entire world. It’s pizza and beer on the couch on a Friday night, it’s getting surprise chocolate because the person knows it’s your favourite and they saw it at the checkout line and thought of you, it’s a nice text saying ‘I miss you’, or it’s a knowing smile or the best sex of your life. It’s all these things and you will have them again. And when you find the person you’re going to spend your life with, you will find it utterly incredible that you ever were willing to settle for one iota less than that, and with the right person, you will never have to again.



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